..31..

 Assalamualaikum all..

Its a bit late. Usually I will write something on my birthday, 25th September. But this year, I just post something on my fb n instagram.

So, in 2020 I already live for 31 years. What is your achievement when you are entering 3 series? 

Mine? Nothing.

I still dont have a stable job, not even start my carrier. Still stay with my mom. I cant drive (but I do have driving license, it just I feel scared to drive and We dont have extra car for me to drive + my mom always shouting every time I try to drive. So, I just give up on driving). I dont have someone whom I can share everything. I dont even have enough money to buy myself KFC, or any my essential stuff. 

While my friends, start to expanding their family. Already bought a house, a new car, planning for a vacation, can have their lunch, dinner at where ever they want without worried about money so much. 

Today I feel so so so sad thinking about myself. Today I cry because I think I cant stand all of this anymore. I feel tired. Tired to act like everything was fine. Tired to tell myself everything gonna be okay soon. I feel tired because there are no one who ever really care about me. About my feeling, about my life, about what I want to do in my life. Everytime I told my family or friends about what I want, always get negative comments. No one ever try to support me.

Being boyish from child, I am not really into cooking or household job. But, i try my best to do each of it. What did I get? “Your food is tasteless” “Why did you do it like this? Why you are so lazy?” Bla bla bla. Im so tired. Mentally and physically. 

I do have something that I want to buy. But if I bought something, then I will need to cut off my essential stuff budget. Huhu.. I dont know when will this end. I feel so frustrated with myself and my life. 

There are time I want to leave all of this. I want to start a new journey of my life. But, I know I need to be a good daughter, sister even no one ever care about me.

I do apply for various job and even attend an interview. Tapi, mungkin belom rezeki. Doakan dipermudahkan urusan dan di buka pintu rezeki buat saya soon. Dengan keadaan pandemik ini, bertambah mencabar mencari kerja di saat dan ketika ini. Dintambah pula dengan kekangan dan halangan yang di terima.

Whatever it is, I do believe, Allah put me in this situation because Allah know I am capable to go through all of this. He knows I am strong enough to face this challenge. There are something I will achieve at the end of this road, isyaAllah. Rezeki itu berbeza bagi setiap manusia. Mungkin rezeki kawan2 berjumpa pasangan, mendapat kerja dengan mudah, dapat beli rumah dan kereta. Mungkin rezeki saya di beri masa berehat secukupnya di rumah, mendekatkan diri dengan Allah dan cuba mengenal dengan lebih rapat ahli keluarga dan jiran-jiran. Mungkin kawan-kawan di uji dengan perhubungan, anak yang tiba-tiba demam, dan ujian buat saya adalah segi kewangan. Allah maha mengetahui apa yang terbaik ❤️

I always tell myself, jangan terlalu risau akan dengan rezeki. Percaya, setiap orang ada rezeki nya tersendiri. Tiada siapa tahu bila dan siapa yang akan datang pada hari itu untuk berkongsi rezeki dengan kita. So, put your 200% trust in Allah. Everything gonna be fine. Tawakal dan jangan pernah putus asa. Buat saja apa yang betul selagi tidak melanggar syarak. Jangan putus doa. Jangan pernah berhenti selagi nyawa di kandung badan. 

It is okay to feel down or meltdown sometimes. Kita insan biasa. Tiada salah nya kalau menangis mengenang nasib. Tapi, jangan terlalu lama. Bangkit dan teruskan usaha 💪🏽. 

Anyway, I got a few birthday gift this year. 1 is from Natural Looks because I am their registered member. They give Shower Gel for September babies. And September babies also will get 20% off for any purchase during birthday month. Since I got quite a lot of points from previous purchase, so I decided to redeem all the points and bought a body scrub. After 20% discount and using my points, I just need to pay RM 6.80 for my body scrub. And I loveeeee it sooooo much! 

And another gift is from my baby cousin. I used to babysit him since he is a few day old. During this pandemic, he will stay at our house from 7-5 on weekdays. Oh.. this little man is the only one whom always compliment my foods especially my ayam kicap. He (or his mother to be exact) give me a perfume from nealofar, young & glow lipstick (nealofa’s mother brand) and a notebook (which I love so much because I used to be stationery addict. But because im quite broke right now, I stop bought pen, pencil, washi tape, stamp, stickers and all the notebook ✌🏽). TQ baby cousin.

Then, my aunty gave me RM 100 to buy some food. And my little brother order foods for us to celebrate my birthday. 

I need to learn to highlight this kind of action towards me more than the negative vibes I got. There are always a good things happen around us but we tend to focus on the other side. Be thankful miera. 

Oh, I also had done my full blood test early this month. Just to do a annual check up. But last time I do my check up is in 2017 🤭. Ada rezeki lebih sikit, pegi la klinik. Everything is good. Cholesterol is good, kidney is ok. Tapi macam biasa lah, hypertension is still there. I need to loose some weight. So far, I lost 5kg from the beginning of MCO until September. Really hope can loose up to 10 kg this year. Miera mesti rajin!!! And istiqomah (paling susah nak buat) and berdisiplin (double susah)

So, Happy Birthday to me!! Hopefully 31+ will bring more luck and more good things to me. Aamiinn.

P/s: Im still single btw 😊

..If u smell what the lurvepurple is cooking?..

 

Ayam masak halia

..Salam Maal Hijrah 1442H..

 Assalamualaikum

Salam Maal Hijrah buat semua yang singgah dan baca blog ni. Semoga di tahun baru ini kita akan berhijrah ke arah 1001 kebaikan. Semoga amal ibadah kita akan dipertingkatkan pada tahun ini. Semoga diri kita semakin hampir dengan Allah, sentiasa memperbaiki diri untuk menjadi hambaNya yang lebih sempurna. Semoga tahun ini memberi kebahagiaan di dunia dan juga akhirat buat kita. Jangan berhenti untuk menjadi baik walau diri mu dikelilingi kebaikan yang tertangguh. 

Dan untuk diri sendiri. Semoga ada sinar di dalam kehidupan pada tahun 1442H ini. Aamiinn. 

..Ayam Masak Kicap Nek Chik..

Assalamualaikum all..

Kembali dalam slot resipi koboi. Hari ni masak ayam kicap. Semenjak sambung study dan jadi penganggur ni, menu ayam kicap ni seminggu 2-3 akan ada. Sebab my cousin suka sangat ayam ni. Akan request ayam kicap ni almost everyday. Disebabkan senang, ok lah  nak layan. Ni resipi dari Nenek saudara miera. Bahan-bahan agak banyak, tapi cara masak simple giler. Tak payah tumis-tumis. So lettsssss!!

Bahan-bahan:

Ayam

Bawang putih, bawang merah, bawang besar, halia di kisar

Butter

Kicap pekat

Kicap soya (kicap tong nam kata org sarawak)

Butter sikit

Sos tiram

Sos cili

Sos tomato sikit

Hoisin Sos (optional)

Susu cair

Gula Apong 

Optional: boleh tambah kentang dan carrot

Cara-cara:

Bersihkan ayam. Letak bawang-bawang di kisar, letak butter/majerin sikit. Masukkan kicap soya, kicap pekat, sos tiram, sos cili, sos tomato, hoisin sos. Masukkan ikut suka, kalau rasa cam ok, on jek. Kalau rasa kurang, adjust la ape patut. Tadi miera takder hoisin sos, so letak sikit seasoning maggi. Masukkan gula apong. Gula apong ni la buat ayam ni jadi sedap. Kalau kat semenanjung xder gula apong, boleh guna gula biasa. Tadi miera pon kehabisan gula apong, so gula biasa pon boleh. Kalau nak, masukkan sekali kentang dan carrot. Gaul rata semua bahan-bahan tadi dengan ayam. Oh, lupe lak ngan rempah 4 sekawan. Masuk jek sekali. Gaul-gaul. Kalau nak, perap dalam 15-30 minit. Nyalakan api, on induction or ape2 jek la korang guna. Dah agak-ayam dah masak sikit, air ayam dah keluar, kentang dan carrot dah empuk, tuang kan sedikit susu cair. Masukkan garam dan gula ikut kesesuaian. Tunggu ayam masak. Done!!! 

Kicap-kicap yang digunakan

Ayam yang diperap dengan bahan-bahan

Susu cair sikit

Ayam Masak Kicap done!!! 

..Lempah Manis..

Lempah Sayur Manis

 

Assalamualaikum all..

Hari ni masak lauk simpleeee sangat. Kat rumah, mak panggil lauk ni lempah manis. Dalam bm tak tau ape. Mungkin sayur masak air kot.

Bahan-bahan:

Bawang putih

Bawang merah

Ikan bilis

Cili

Sayur pilihan (hari ni guna sayur kacang panjang n bayam pahit. Semalam guna labu kuning)

Cara-cara:

Tumbuk bawang putih, bawang merah, cili n ikan bilis sampai puas hati. Nak lumat ker nak kasar ker ikut suka lah. Masakkan air dalam periuk. Kalau ade guna sayur yang keras macam labu ker masukkan sekali bagi empuk. Dah agak empuk sikit, masukkan semua bahan yang di tumbuk tadi. Pastu masukkan sayur daun or kacang panjang. Adjust rasa tambah gula ker garam ker. Masak sekejap. Doneee!!!! 

Menu lain hari ni: kari kepala ikan bersama bendi and ayam goreng macam biasa. 

..after 2 month..

Assalamualaikum all..

Lama gila tak da update langsung.. Weell.. Im very busy with my study life.. As usual.. Bila sem start dan menghampiri pertengahan.. Confirm bz mengalahkan pm..

Hipotesis as student:
semakin hujung semestes, semakin banyak kerja, dateline, test, quiz, project, assignment yang perlu di buat..

Awal2 sem biasanya rilek2 jak.. Sampey goleng2 nanga running man..dah hujung sem baruk tauk tinggi rendah nya langit.. Sampey sik cukup tanagn nak polah kerja..

So, next week saya akan menghadapi peperiksaan akhir bagi semester ke 5.. Wish me very2 luck ok? Since carry mark semua terok.. :)

p/s:pict tiada kena mengena dengan isi.. Pict di snap d palm beach seafood, santubong

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