..the worst lie of my life: catfish..

assalamualaikum all

as i mentioned in last post, ive been experiencing some weird experience with some "friend" that i met online (read: MiRC) again? yesss.. again. i never learn my mistake kan?

so, i will write this post as lurvepurple and might as miera at the end. so letssss the story begin..

..Hello 2019..

assalamualaikum all..

after a years and a month.. I feel like I want to write something and update what happened to my life

before we start with my 2019 so far, lets recap 2018 a lil bit. the best and only achievement in my life for 2018 is NO HEART BROKEN incident.. peeeehhhh setaun pok jaga hati dan perasaan.. tapi tetaplah pedih dan luka di hati terasa. kohkohkoh.. cuma dapat di elak luka baru

oh.. 2018 I lost my uncle, my father's brother. satu kehilangan besar dalam family. sebab nya ketua segala ketua.. ketua kumpulan zikir, ketua rombongan bila ada majlis2 nikah, tunang, merisik, ketua kumpulan selawat, imam bila berjemaah, ketua ngaco urang latah, ketua berjoget di hujung majlis.. semua lah nya.. berasa nya sik ada.. huhu.. al-fatihah Awang Medaan Awang Ahmad.

n 2018 i lost my sense of everything too.. rasa macam heartless gila 2018. sampey satu tahap i feel worried with myself because i cant react anything in whatever happen in my life. i cant feel sadness, happiness.. nothing..blank

somehow, something good happen in 2018. i met a loottt of mirc's friend because I had 3 trips to KL last year. in apr, oct and dec. sharing stories and stuff.. kenangan indah sebenarnya 😀

and the best vacation is in Dec. my family vacation, 6 out of 7 of my siblings in KL for vacation n of course our queen of our heart, my mak. insyaAllah ada rezeki kita vacation adik beradik ke Mekah gik..amiiiinn.. insyaAllah

study?

masih seperti itu.. masih belum abis dan entah bila nak abis. huhu

2019 so far?

nothing much change in my study. nothing good happen in financial. something good happen to my heart in the beginning of 2019. but in march, dah start sik best.. heeee.. so, i guess 2019 dimulakan dengan masalah hati lagik.. iskiskisk.. kepak jaga 2018, masok2 2019 lalu kenak.. iskiskisk..

anyway.. im going to have my pre-viva maybe next week or next month. wish me luck ok? and wish I can finish my study by this year. before september to be exact. and no more heart broken series in 2019. I want a happy life... wish everything will be fine ok?

good luck adik2 nak dapat result SPM esok.. all the best for ur future.

Happy 10 years ^lurve_purple^ .. 2018~~~

assalamualaikum

woowww.. 2018 already. its means, i've been blogging for 10 years. huyoooo.. sik berasa eehhh

i still remember writing all my very first blog post, using extremely slow internet. how can we survive back then? kinek tok, unifi loading 2sec pun dah bising padah internet slow.

im not involve seriously in this blogging things because i started this blog just for fun and i love typing. im thinking of what else i can do with typing other than chatting on mirc. therefore, most of my post are crap, nagging and how i express my own feeling. 10 years ago, we dont have facebook or twitter for us to share something. this is the only medium and blog is one of the famous medium in seeking and sharing information.

now, most of the time, i will be posting my thought, my activities, my nagging in facebook and my angry feeling, my frustration and all inappropriate words in twitter 😉all the pictures will go to instagram.

so, today is first day of second month of 2018. cepat betol masa beralu.. pejam celik pejam celik..ehh dah bulan Februari. I do hope your first month of 2018 is full of happiness and all the positive things and vibes happen around u.

as for me, im not enjoy my 2018 yet. im still struggling with my studies. i do feel like just give up but some voice inside me telling that i should not quit. i need to finish whatever thing i had started. this is my dream. things will not happen as easy as abc..there will be a lottt of challenges, a lot of struggle, tears and drama before we can achieve what we want.

i really hope i will end all this struggle, all this challenges with proudest smile on my face. im too tired to have stress and im too tired to cry. I must admit, my study journey never been easy. since my Diploma level, i keep fighting with myself to finish my study. Gagal itu biasa, Lulus itu luar biasa for me. to get A for my test is almost rare. but i manage to graduate.. Alhamdulillah. but with this journey, i think i made a mistake. this is not my forte at all. in fact, i keep fail in this subject during my undergrad. at first, i think i want to take this as challenge but i keep failing through this 3 years. with no money to survive (biasiswa dah habis sebab extend sem), with all failure in my design, with all the bad result. i still need to finish this. please pray for me.. 😊😊😊😊

however, not all things are bad things. i do have some opportunities (i means a big one) to travel to penang and met all the fantastic people and learn a lotttt from them. but maybe im still dont get enough training or myself is not good enough (or im the one who keep my work sambil lewa) to get a desire result. on positive sight, i do enjoy both my penang's trip (in 2016 & 2017)

I really hope 2018 will bring us more positive vibes, more good things going to be happen this year, yang tak jumpa jodoh lagi, akan berjumpa jodoh, we have all the opportunities to travel around the world, pergi umrah, pergi haji, more prosperity this year, more superb friends, less enemies, less drama.. and less heart broken incidents (i had been through this things for 2 years straight. kohkohkoh.. hopefully not anymore in 2018)

my main goal for this year is to graduate and start looking for job.

oh.. dah register mengundi guyss??

Credit Picture: Google

..He is my Jonnie..

assalamualaikum all..

i will write this post as ^lurve_purple^

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